The pain and hurt which i feel, go as deep as it is real; to be around and yet unseen, takes the water out of the steam.

2007-12-12

The pain and hurt which i feel, go as deep as it is real; to be around and yet unseen, takes the water out of the steam.

It is raining.

I feel broken.

Perhaps this is the loneliest I will ever feel. Perhaps I can tell myself that if I can make it through tonight, I can make it through anything for I have dreaded this day all my life.

The man I love, who raised me, and who has loved me more than anyone ever has, my (grandfather) Oupa Mike died round 3am this morning. Peacefully and without pain.

No matter what I have done (…… and I have fucked up plenty), to him, I have always been enough. Unconditionally accepted and loved – never judged, always forgiven.

At the feet of this giant, I stand in awe and wonder, for in this life I was loved – by him.

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In September 1997, “The Nocturnal Wenchy” started her blog. The blog remains painfully real but these days she is more of an intermittent Blogger! 😉

14 responses to “The pain and hurt which i feel, go as deep as it is real; to be around and yet unseen, takes the water out of the steam.”

Elize

Dec 12, 2007 at 8:43 pm

I am so sorry to hear about Oupa Mike. He was a gentleman. Always will be.

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birthbuddy

Dec 12, 2007 at 9:23 pm

*sob*

:`(

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Tim

Dec 12, 2007 at 9:36 pm

Chris, words cannot express the sadness one feels and for the sympathy i extend forth in the memory of a great man, a man of all ages, and one who richly loved you, unconditionally.

Viva La Oupa Mike

with all my love, Tim

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Supermom

Dec 12, 2007 at 9:58 pm

Now just look at me crying. Baby…he was more than your Oupa. I understand that. He knew that. I wish I was there. Lots of hugs and I love you baie.

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SecretRider

Dec 13, 2007 at 2:32 am

I am so sorry. My deepest sympathies to you.

{Hug}

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Mumtaz

Dec 13, 2007 at 2:54 am

My sincere condolences to you and your family.

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~ Sailor ~

Dec 13, 2007 at 6:48 am

I am so sorry for your loss, my sweet Wenchy.

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JillyD

Dec 13, 2007 at 7:08 am

I am so very sorry for your loss, Christel. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Godspeed Oupa Mike.

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Jaxie

Dec 13, 2007 at 9:25 am

Not enough words for you babe.
xxx

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Myrtle

Dec 13, 2007 at 2:10 pm

I am so sorry for your lose Wenchy. All my thoughts and prayers and lots of love to you and your family. xx

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Nan

Dec 13, 2007 at 2:24 pm

Love you, friend (((hugs)))

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John

Dec 13, 2007 at 11:43 pm

/hug

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JennyKlass

Dec 16, 2007 at 1:12 pm

Huge Hugs to you Chris…

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angel

Dec 19, 2007 at 9:07 am

and you will always love and be loved by him wenchy!

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Nocturnal Wenchy