... a bit of that

You’re not who you are, you’re only what other people think you are. Fishism.

  • I asked my friend Oom (My ‘adopted son’ Kyle’s uncle whom I call Oom. He doesn’t like it, but I don’t care.) to learn to bake Kichel ’cause I love it but then, he does not run a kosher kitchen and I can’t eat un-kosher Jewish biscuits. That is just wrong.
  • Basically if I knew there was a Jewish holiday to milk I would have bought Kichel yesterday to feed my ever increasing ass….  I felt so proud of myself leaving without the Kichel… but then I did buy Strawberry Pops so I am a fake.
  • Yes, I’ve gained weight… and I feel a fucking failure for it… and that my friends are putting it mildly.
  • The past few months have not been kind to me in body, soul or spirit… but I am living in hope of my body returning to at least a few kg’s lighter (just the ones I gained lost would be a win), my soul more at peace and a soaring spirit would be fantastic. 🙂 I do still live in hope so all is not lost.
  • Oh, we saw Harry Potter. It is my favourite ever. I truly loved it. Have I mentioned it?
  • Liam is now addicted to Ally McBeal. Don’t judge us. Bygones.
  • Thanksgiving went well…. I’m seriously considering that after a decade, it has runs it’s course… but from the feedback received, privately and in public – I may continue… time will tell.
  • Thank you to everyone who came, everyone who donated prizes, everyone who helped collect prizes, everyone who baked, you made things – who gave of themselves – I appreciate it, I noticed and I thank you.
  • A HUGE THANK YOU to those who dressed up!!!!
  • Thanks to my husband for arranging the venue, the set up (although neither of us really liked the church like set up the set up crew thought was applicable) and doing whatever was necessary to make sure it all ran smoothly.
  • HUGE big thanks to Leigh-Ann for setting up Tranquil Body Treats, with a matching cake and all!!! You are very special to me.
  • There was a number of people I missed this year who couldn’t make it, didn’t want to make it… or have just drifted out of my life…. I thought of you.
  • I ordered cupcakes from my above mentioned friend Oom as well as the kids party packs – biscuits – which was a huge hit.
  • I am in love with the biscuits ’cause they are delicious, colourful and very reasonably prices – so if you need to place an order, let me know and I will put you in touch.
  • Off course all the pictures are on Face Book…. so if you have not visited, go check it out. Sadly I did not get a proper WALTONS picture although we were all there. It slipped my mind completely.
  • Noid’s mom made lovely quotes that must have been very popular ’cause they all left with the guests which made me smile.
  • It was so busy I never even got to have some of her chocolate cake which I love. 😦
  • My Mom and sister are both ill and in and out of hospital so I did not have a single family member at Thanksgiving. It kicked my ass a little since everyone else is pretty much dead or not really involved in my daily life.
  • My friend Melany was not there either…. I felt a little lost as none of my ‘old’ friends were there…. but I did feel found with new ones who are getting to know me, will hopefully see value in my friendship and pursue it….
  • Generally I am not in a fantastic place but some days are better than others and the last few has been on the better side. Yay.
  • I have not given up so that is good.
  • I have not done anything towards Christmas and I have no intention. I know. Bad. I did see a purple Christmas tree that Karen also told me about that I liked… but not even enough to want to buy. Scary shit.
  • Work is still going well, no issues there – just really busy, but not unhappy at least for which we are truly thankful.
  • I miss my husband allot this morning. Waking up alone sometimes goes almost unnoticed, other times it feels like a gaping wound…. I’m feeling more wound like this morning. Oh well, such is my life at the moment.
  • No real resolution to this issue…. I honestly do not see an end in sight…. it could be months still.
  • There is not a single picture of me that I like at Thanksgiving. None. I look like a walrus in all of them. HATE IT.
  • My husband took this one…. I wanted to show you my bunny ears, so here you go….
  • I think I may feel as fed up as I sound in this post today…. but we live in hope of lunch time, or dinner time.. or at latest tomorrow hey?

Love,

Wenchy

5 thoughts on “You’re not who you are, you’re only what other people think you are. Fishism.”

  1. Due to the total lack of anything to say that could be resembling intelligence, I will comment only by saying “Very Nice Post!” My mom did teach me manners, therefore I shall not drink your coffee and forget to say thanks.
    This ‘fed up’ feeling you’ve mentioned, Im beginning to think it might be a global situation… is it full moon yet?

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  2. Hugs. Hugs.
    I can read that you are not in a happy place at the moment and it can’t be nice aswell with your family members being in and out of hospital. Strongs. I hope your mood and life improves quickly.
    I am also sure that you will be able to lose that extra kgs that you have gained. You can do it!

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  3. I was one of the ones who missed Thanksgiving this year, It looks like you all had a super time, and we were sorry that we could not make it in person, but in spirit we were there with bells on LOL.(here is hoping the tradition continues and we make it next time)I do not see the size of your ass Chris, only the size of your heart, and you looked fab in blue, cannot believe how big the kids have gotten.Hope things sort themselves out for you soon my friend, sending hugs…….

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  4. I actually laughed out loud at the comment about Liam so you even funny when you are fed up.

    Dont worry about the weight. We will both lose it those few extra KG’s. Bygones

    Still love you more than life itself

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