I was able to spend a few hours with Victoria, in the afternoon.
She got in the car and I couldn’t hold back my tears. I was so happy to see her. I miss her with a longing I have trouble putting into words. We are loud and inappropriate but we are connected. I looked at her face in my hands and I could see all who came before us.
She showed me where her new school is, that she doesn’t like the uniform. Told me about her adjusting to life with daddy and uncle Stanley and that nobody can replace me as her Mom. She told me she misses me and that she is settling in and that she burned herself on the kettle. We made jokes because I always burn myself.
As I drove away hours later I saw her bbm status “I don’t want you to leave mommy” with many crying icons. I couldn’t see the road through my tears. I actually drove around the corner so she couldn’t see me and cried.
Some days are easier than others but it takes lots of self restraint not to make her sad and phone or text too much. I want her to be happy. The adjustment will take time.
I love you my Victoria. xxx
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Cannot imagine how hard that must be 😦
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It is incredibly difficult. I don’t know the words.
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Awww Stel baie liefde xx
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Dankie vriendin. Ek kan mos nou so doen met ‘n bietjie liefde.
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You know I know
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I wish I could have spared you. I do.
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I cannot imagine how hard this must be 😥
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There isn’t an imagination that runs that deep that collectively collects the tears and the pain. You die a little and you wish to God to make you feel less.
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Sjoe….my heart goes out to you {hug}
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Thank you.
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tears tonite for you and her..
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I know your tears and I’ve been thinking about your brother Michael the last few days. Hope you doing okay. I now understand.
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I feel it in my heart how hard this must be for you …
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Multiply it. Jenny I wish it on nobody.
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Sorry, she burnt herself on the kettle at my house! I couldn’t think of anything worse than being seperated from my girls:-(
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Thanks Lynne. You know me. I don’t seperate from what I believe is mine well. It took me so long to gather things and people that belong to me….
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Ah! Shame. I hope both of you feel better soon. Xoxox
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Thanks Gaby.
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Oh my friend…………what a heartfelt post. I cried.!!!!!
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