Fibromyalgia

Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I felt it building. The exhaustion. From Monday to Thursday I realised I was incredibly tired by bedtime. Like there isn’t enough sleep in the world to feed me. Last night I felt myself crashing. It’s a tired I can’t explain. I took my daily meds to assist sleeping and not having my body present itself as a stiff job in the morning. Usually I fall asleep soon after. Nothing. I’m so tired that my eye lids feel heavy but still, no sleep. Round 3am I took my anxiety meds. Again feeling more relaxed … Continue reading Fibromyalgia

#NetflixAndChill

Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I needed to renew a repeat script for Cymgen. A kick ass medication prescribed at my Fibromyalgia diagnosis in 2011. I’m not always sure what the medication does. Where chronic illness ends and Wenchy starts. I’m very certain of what happens when I do not take my medication! Even with the best medication, pain still creeps over my body rendering me powerless and incapacitated to deal with simple tasks at times. It steals time and experiences from me. I hate it. People do not understand. I look fine. Actually I’m fabulous. I have no … Continue reading #NetflixAndChill

I believe somewhere in the darkest night, a candle glows.

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

5am

Yesterday was physically an excessively painful day. From my elbows to my fingers tips which has already taking a beating from the Ankolising Spondylitis, was a no party zone.

The section of my body affected feels heavy. Accompanied by a dull ache that feels like it comes from the depth of the bone, beaming from the surrounding soft tissue. As if someone hit you. Hard. Only it lingers. It doesn’t ease up. Your skin feels as if it is on fire. Your cannot stand to be touched.

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“What makes the desert beautiful,” said the little prince, “is that somewhere it hides a well…”

Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I have readers, loyal and long suffering readers that have been around 20 years next year (party?), and when I don’t blog, they text, email or whatsapp me messages to ask “Everything ok?” “You ok?”You gotta love it, right? Thank you for knowing me well enough not to phone me. No idea however why I have not received flowers, cupcakes or chocolate…. although to be perfectly honest, if you can deliver low carb meals, snacks or general groceries to my house I will be forever grateful. #Smile Everything is OK. I am permanently completely … Continue reading “What makes the desert beautiful,” said the little prince, “is that somewhere it hides a well…”

Miraculously recover or die. That’s the extent of our cultural bandwidth for chronic illness.

Dear friends and other interesting creatures, The above quote is from S. Kelley Harwell. Btw, when you read this, remember that everything good I have done, I did with these issues alongside me, just as everything crappy I have done. I’m still just me. Living with chronic pain, fatigue (mentally, emotionally and physically) striving to be a loving, supportive wife, involved, caring mother and blossoming DIVA with many roles attached, is a challenging task. Sometimes I drop the ball all together. For those late to the party, I was diagnosed as having Bipolar Disorder when I was 14 as well … Continue reading Miraculously recover or die. That’s the extent of our cultural bandwidth for chronic illness.

You are on your knees before it, and it laughs.

Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I was diagnosed as bipolar before it was trendy. I have Generalised Anxiety Disorder which means anxiety is in jest, my default emotion in truth. A friend on Facebook posted pics of famous people also diagnosed as bipolar. They all smiling, looking perfectly normal. Why? Because normal,  is a setting on a washing machine. I would love to see your mental illness. This is me: Break the stigma. If you have diabetes,  you would say so,  being treated for a mental illness is no different. I wish you the spin cycle, Wenchy There is … Continue reading You are on your knees before it, and it laughs.

Midnight train (thoughts) to Georgia (nowhere).

Dear friends and other interesting creatures, Some general news… after midnight… Just go with it. *  Can you believe at the end of June,  I’ve been banting for a year!? Many kilograms and cm’s later,  it is one of the best decisions I have ever made. I’ve reached the point where I can say *we* live a low carb lifestyle. I have never thought of it as a diet. Weird how the brain works. * The scale has not been my friend lately but I’ve had a good week. Is better for my mental health not to weigh myself all … Continue reading Midnight train (thoughts) to Georgia (nowhere).

2014 – Year End Quiz – @RichSimmondsZA pls RT

Dear friends and other interesting creatures – As my December tan is busy peeling off, so the days of the new year is racing forward …. I put this quiz together in 2008… so if you complete it, link back to me please? I would love to read about your year. 🙂 My answers for the past few years to the quiz can be found here: 2013 – Year End Quiz Answers 2012 – Year End Quiz Answers 2011 – Year End Quiz Answers 2010 – Year End Quiz Answers 2009 – Year End Quiz Answers 2008 – Year End … Continue reading 2014 – Year End Quiz – @RichSimmondsZA pls RT