Dear friends and other interesting creatures, My chest feels heavy and every now and then I feel myself gasping for air. There is a lump in my throat as a cry wants to escape. A wetness in the corner of my eyes. Breathe. I miss my Liam. Writing the words, the wetness escapes my eyes… Continue reading Lee.
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, As far as I was concerned, I was about to welcome baby Elijah into the world and like his brothers, he was going to love football #YNWA, riding scooters and generally misbehaving with ample corner time! The most precious little chicken ever born our Victoria is. On your… Continue reading The girl I never knew I needed. Happy 18th birthday Queen Victoria.
Dear Kev, Liam James and Victoria, I miss you tonight with a pain so intense in my chest, it makes breathing difficult. Tears burns my eyes silently. Remember when we were all we had? Burning marshmallows over a candle on the bedroom floor because I was a "cool" mom like that? I always wanted to… Continue reading I winked and you were gone.
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, My first real, solid true love.... The very first anything I felt was MINE. He never gives up on me. He will fight for me and he will fight with me. He will care for me ... while sighing a lot. 🙂 He will drink vodka with me. He… Continue reading You’ll Never Walk Alone
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, This reminded me of beautiful you, Victoria . My youngest biological child. The way you use to look at me with wonder when you were little. I told you if they could one man on the moon, why couldn't they put all of them there? 🙂 You seemed to… Continue reading For the good times
My darling chicken little, I miss you tremendously this morning. A sore that runs from my heart to my hands looking for yours and ending in a tear. ♡ #SmileBeautiful.. That is what you taught me. You need to © that shit. ♡ Be kind, you never know which chapter of their book another person… Continue reading The first time ever I saw your face.
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, Every year, I do my best to approach December as a passage of time, just another month. Some years I do better than others. The anniversary of my father's death is on the 14th, and my Oupa Mike on the 12th... Just before Christmas is Oupa Mike's birthday. I… Continue reading Shut your eyes and see.
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I wanted this child so very much. I prayed him down from heaven, including asking God that please, I do not want a boy with red hair! Have mercy. I never found out the gender, but I was having a boy. My boy. I wanted to give him the… Continue reading He traveled very far, over land and sea…