Dear friends and other interesting creatures, My chest feels heavy and every now and then I feel myself gasping for air. There is a lump in my throat as a cry wants to escape. A wetness in the corner of my eyes. Breathe. I miss my Liam. Writing the words, the wetness escapes my eyes… Continue reading
The girl I never knew I needed. Happy 18th birthday Queen Victoria.
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, As far as I was concerned, I was about to welcome baby Elijah into the world and like his brothers, he was going to love football #YNWA, riding scooters and generally misbehaving with ample corner time! The most precious little chicken ever born our Victoria is. On your… Continue reading
I winked and you were gone.
Dear Kev, Liam James and Victoria, I miss you tonight with a pain so intense in my chest, it makes breathing difficult. Tears burns my eyes silently. Remember when we were all we had? Burning marshmallows over a candle on the bedroom floor because I was a “cool” mom like that? I always wanted to… Continue reading
You’ll Never Walk Alone
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, My first real, solid true love…. The very first anything I felt was MINE. He never gives up on me. He will fight for me and he will fight with me. He will care for me … while sighing a lot. 🙂 He will drink vodka with me. He… Continue reading
For the good times
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, This reminded me of beautiful you, Victoria . My youngest biological child. The way you use to look at me with wonder when you were little. I told you if they could one man on the moon, why couldn’t they put all of them there? 🙂 You seemed to… Continue reading
The first time ever I saw your face.
My darling chicken little, I miss you tremendously this morning. A sore that runs from my heart to my hands looking for yours and ending in a tear. ♡ #SmileBeautiful.. That is what you taught me. You need to © that shit. ♡ Be kind, you never know which chapter of their book another person… Continue reading
Shut your eyes and see.
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, Every year, I do my best to approach December as a passage of time, just another month. Some years I do better than others. The anniversary of my father’s death is on the 14th, and my Oupa Mike on the 12th… Just before Christmas is Oupa Mike’s birthday. I… Continue reading
He traveled very far, over land and sea…
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I wanted this child so very much. I prayed him down from heaven, including asking God that please, I do not want a boy with red hair! Have mercy. I never found out the gender, but I was having a boy. My boy. I wanted to give him the… Continue reading
In conversation with Liam James
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, I’ve slowly been building up a series of interviews I have done with the kids in my life. Kinda get their perception of me…. So far I’ve published Kyle and Kyla ‘s answers to my many questions. Go check them out. Today’s is a little different. I found a post… Continue reading
In conversation with Kyla Jean
Dear friends and other interesting creatures, The second in my series of interviews with my kids. I always knew I would have many children. You know, I collect stuff. 🙂 Yes, it is meant as light hearted as it sounds. It never occurred to my younger self that I did not have to conceive, nor… Continue reading
Mom to many, wife to SirNoid. Lover of water, walks in the shade and all things purple.