Category: Random Thoughts

… cause it is Tuesday.

• Life feels overwhelming.
• I have a chronic stomach ache. I’ve had tests, scans and scopes done and apparently it is my Anxiety just being extra.
• My skin feels like it is on fire, a Fibromyalgia flair type pain.
• I’m so tired. To my soul tired. Physically, emotionally and mentally.
• I am surrounded by people but I feel so alone.
• I hate crying by default.
• Writing *I* so many times makes it all about me, again. Selfish. Self-centered.
• My heart just feels so heavy.

I’m trying to find things to be thankful for. I know they are there and there are many. Lots.

me.

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

My life has never been uneventful. Things have happened to me in life that I did not want and did not deserve. Just like you.

I’ve also allowed events and encouraged people to happen to me. Good and bad! My stupidity in motion can be exceptional for the level of intelligence inside this beautiful hurricane I am.

There has been a great amount of deep sorrow, regret and insurmountable heartache in my life. Perhaps also for you.

I’ve learned that pain demands to be felt. Grieving people I have loved that I have lost to both life and death. Grieving my own doing at times There is no way around it. The only way is through.

Continue reading “Dance me to the end of love.”

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

I did not start blogging for recognition 22 years ago, or to be regarded as influential. I did not start blogging for invitations to events, private parties or functions with famous people. I did not start blogging because I wanted “free stuff” (no such thing exists btw).

I love being a Social Media Diva experiencing exotic dishes and meeting fabulous people, attending world-class productions, informative and inspirational events or making a difference in highlighting causes and projects that I believe in. I enjoy collaborating with brands and friends, either enhancing my financial situation or sometimes I experience moments money cannot buy. Oh, there has been so many of those over the past six years! … but this has never been my motivating factor.

Continue reading “Searching for the spirit of the great blogger.”

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

You crave chaos. You’re happiest when the world is in an uproar. You thrive on madness. Even when your magic is at its best when it’s the catalyst to confusion. You still can’t admit this?
– A.G. Howard

Continue reading “If only the World was in an uproar.”

Darling friends and other interesting creatures,

🎶 I’m currently listening to Eddie Izaard ‘s memoir “Believe Me: A Memoir of Love, Death and Jazz Chickens” on Audible.

Loving being able to “read” and drive, “read” and shop for groceries, or today when I was left alone at Truffles while everyone else went for a smoke, I popped my earphones in and got me a bit of an ear full. You gotta love it. Continue reading “Believe me.”

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🔮 My Rheumatoid Arthritis has become quite evident in my hands. There are simple tasks I simply cannot perform without pain, or not at all. Lifting a heavy jug to pour, opening a cool drink bottle or even taking a tray out the oven. I recently had to ask @se7en_hoods to cut a burger we were sharing. I’m was convinced she thought I was being a DIVA… and I would not even blame her! 👀 I’m too young for these old people problems dammit.
. Continue reading “#5randomfacts about @NocturnalWenchy 💜”

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

I started my love affair with audiobooks in January of this year. Out of necessity really.

I wanted to read but had other tasks to perform at the same time, so listening at home, in my car, on my phone in coffee shops…. it has become a thing. I’m finally using the earphones that came with my phone! #teenagerloading Continue reading “Born a Crime got us Educated.”

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

Scrolling through social media tonight, I felt like an absolute failure. Clearly not living my best life in my curvy girl jeans.

It FEELS like everyone on my feed is out there living their best lives in their skinny bodies, fancy clothes, beautiful homes, perfect bloody everything with ample opportunities that just seem to keep rolling in, and then there is me.

Yes, for this moment… woe is indeed me. Silence. Hear me out. Continue reading “Comparison is the thief if joy.”

Dear friends and other interesting creatures,

💓 The details are in the simplicity of what makes life so good.
. Continue reading “Because flapjacks… 💋”